Self-Ashtualisation

To be a-mused by a muse Is no laughing matter As the aspiring-respiring-perspiring writer Is charged with the muse-ic, electric shock of dismissal When the muse gives up on its charge Or the writing/the charged decides to unplug herself From that guardian-angelic muse’s Delightful-painful Jolting electric slaps   But to be un-a-mused by a muse Is similarly grating, jarring ‘Electric shocks on your teeth’ sort of jarring Especially when the beginning novelist Plans to submit to the convulsive therapy Executed by the muse-turned psychiatrist Whose medication aims To make the writer spit the truth, Coat the spat truth on her fingertips And teleport it onto the doc-prescribed Word doc. .

  1)     Authenticity – To continue staying true. 2)     Bravery – To speak out against injustice and to say what I want to say through art. 3)     Creativity – To self-actualise; to spread love and beauty; to heal. 4)     Dreaminess – To appreciate the wonders of the world and experience the power of dreams. 5)     Empathy – To listen without judgements to others perspectives and to my own needs, cultivating understanding and acceptance in the process. 6)     Faith – In my abilities, positivity and the universe. 7)     Gratitude – For all the beautiful things and people I am blessed with. 8)     Honesty – To myself and others for genuine relationships. 9)     Introspection – For self-awareness, self-discovery, learning and growth. 10) Joy – Because true happiness matters and some things deserve to be celebrated. 11) Knowledge – For lifelong learning and to continue expanding my limitless horizons. 12) Love – To learn to love and be loved unconditionally.

My introspective mood today and my compulsion to write have given birth to this…   1)    Growing up or older and growing? ·          In a beautiful essay the humanistic psychologist Carl Rogers wrote, he asked himself whether he was ‘growing old’ or ‘old and growing’. This rhetorical question for myself was inspired by that exploration as I would like to remind myself not to stop growing by refusing to ‘grow up, full stop’ but continue to grow. Accepting every evolving version of me is also paramount for growth (see no 10). 2)    A (firm) note on multitasking: ·          Which states, ‘Multitasking, Ashley, applies to everything you do. Once more, everything, meaning, not just physical tasks but also mental and psychological ones such as prioritising and healing emotional wounds… One wound at a time.’ 3)    Has the unconditional love I think I have experienced been real and do I still believe in unconditional love? ·          I have pondered on this long and hard and I